Nobody realizes the torment my mind puts me through when I don’t speak my mind. So many thoughts go through my head, that it physically makes me weak.
So many things are left unsaid, due to the drama that they would unfold if I let it all out. The relationships I’ve made will break and crumble to the ground.
I need to learn to let go, and live. I need to learn to let shit go. I need to learn to not let things get to me.
This is my rant. And I need to let it out.
1. It breaks my heart to no end, to see that only my family and few members of my fiancée’s family, care about my daughter. In the past 4 months of being on this earth, not one text or call to see how she’s doing. None. Only three members have commented on Facebook statuses, liked pictures, seen her. The rest have been from my family.
He says that she doesn’t need anybody else besides the people who truly care, and show it.
I understand that. But it still breaks my heart.
2. A couple months ago, I did say I wanted to punch his other daughter in the face for smart comments made towards our daughter. Freedom of speech isn’t a thing anymore? Yes, it was wrong. But I was protecting what is mine. Did I apologize? Yes. But it doesn’t make a difference. Do I regret apologizing? Hell yes, I most certainly do. Because I found a mocking comment about it.
She will never know her sister, and I completely support my daughter’s decision about it when she’s older and sees that her “sister” doesn’t care. She has two brothers. That’s all who my daughter needs.
3. People have been irritating the living piss out of me. From not helping, to asking for money. We have to get our own place. And yet, they ask for money and we can’t say no, even if we want to. Because it would be thrown in our faces.
This is my rant. I needed to let it out.