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Sep 29 2014

Nobody realizes the torment my mind puts me through when I don’t speak my mind. So many thoughts go through my head, that it physically makes me weak.
So many things are left unsaid, due to the drama that they would unfold if I let it all out. The relationships I’ve made will break and crumble to the ground.

I need to learn to let go, and live. I need to learn to let shit go. I need to learn to not let things get to me.

This is my rant. And I need to let it out.

1. It breaks my heart to no end, to see that only my family and few members of my fiancée’s family, care about my daughter. In the past 4 months of being on this earth, not one text or call to see how she’s doing. None. Only three members have commented on Facebook statuses, liked pictures, seen her. The rest have been from my family.
He says that she doesn’t need anybody else besides the people who truly care, and show it.
I understand that. But it still breaks my heart.

2. A couple months ago, I did say I wanted to punch his other daughter in the face for smart comments made towards our daughter. Freedom of speech isn’t a thing anymore? Yes, it was wrong. But I was protecting what is mine. Did I apologize? Yes. But it doesn’t make a difference. Do I regret apologizing? Hell yes, I most certainly do. Because I found a mocking comment about it.
She will never know her sister, and I completely support my daughter’s decision about it when she’s older and sees that her “sister” doesn’t care. She has two brothers. That’s all who my daughter needs.

3. People have been irritating the living piss out of me. From not helping, to asking for money. We have to get our own place. And yet, they ask for money and we can’t say no, even if we want to. Because it would be thrown in our faces.

This is my rant. I needed to let it out.

Sep 01 2014
I had a cart full of vegetables, cereal, 3 containers of milk, juice, eggs, 4 cans of beans, and formula. 
I had to put it in Aaron’s backpack and a reusable bag, and walk back home with all of this.

A neighbor two doors down was also shopping and offered me a ride home. Needless to say, I took it and so thankful her and her husband did that!

#goodpeople #groceries

I had a cart full of vegetables, cereal, 3 containers of milk, juice, eggs, 4 cans of beans, and formula.
I had to put it in Aaron’s backpack and a reusable bag, and walk back home with all of this.

A neighbor two doors down was also shopping and offered me a ride home. Needless to say, I took it and so thankful her and her husband did that!

#goodpeople #groceries

Aug 28 2014

majiinboo:

  • Do not forget Michael Brown
  • Do not forget how the media dehumanized him and tried to justify his murder
  • Do not forget how peaceful protests were painted as savage riots
  • Do not forget police armed with military grade weapons terrorized and arrested black civilians
  • Do not forget Darren Wilson being awarded over $200,000 in fundraiser donations for murdering an unarmed black child
  • Do not forget that this system was not built to defend us, but to control us
  • Do not forget Ferguson 

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Aug 19 2014
This little girl is gonna be 3 months old tomorrow. :(
#stopgrowing #3months #Trinity #babygirl

This little girl is gonna be 3 months old tomorrow. :(
#stopgrowing #3months #Trinity #babygirl

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I get my dress in a few more days. :)

Aug 18 2014
Aug 12 2014
Ugh…guest list making. 
And already have half of it down with some family that I KNOW will show up, and the list includes the small bridal party we have. Have to wait for Aaron to get home to figure this shit out.
#wedding #weddingplanning #planning #61315 #June132015 #guestlist #guests

Ugh…guest list making.
And already have half of it down with some family that I KNOW will show up, and the list includes the small bridal party we have. Have to wait for Aaron to get home to figure this shit out.
#wedding #weddingplanning #planning #61315 #June132015 #guestlist #guests

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"Genie, you’re free…"
:’(
#RIPRobinWilliams #RIP #RobinWilliams #Genie #FreeAtLast

"Genie, you’re free…"
:’(
#RIPRobinWilliams #RIP #RobinWilliams #Genie #FreeAtLast

Aug 07 2014

Be the bigger person.

Even if the other person isn’t willing to accept anything, be the bigger person. It will make you feel better as a human being. We all make mistakes. I made a big mistake this past Saturday.

My fiancé’s daughter, at his brother’s wedding reception, made a sarcastic remark when I was talking to his sister and mother about Trinity. Proceeded to tell his nephew that she is his only girl cousin, and repeatedly said her mother and grandfather were her dad.
I was angry. I was upset. I was offended, especially with the smart remark dealing with Trinity.

I made the mistake of telling my fiancé’s sister that his daughter is lucky I didn’t punch her in the face for the remarks. I wasn’t thinking when I said it.
She went back to his daughter’s mother and told her.

Now, almost a week later, his daughter’s mother messaged him.
I wanted to be the bigger person.

It was my mistake and I owned up to it. I messaged her, apologizing about what I said, but also explaining why I said it. I told her I shouldn’t have said it. I apologized.

I’m only human. I make mistakes, and I have to own up to those mistakes.
From here on out, I will. I’m going to be the bigger person.

It makes your life a whole lot easier.

Aug 01 2014

That awkward moment when you’re trying to find a nice outfit to wear to a wedding, but the only kind of ‘dress pants’ you have are a pair of Dickies pants.

#awkward #tomboyissues

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